Sunday, January 10, 2010
A Greater Plan...
A few of you were aware that we were expecting in July. On Tuesday of this week I started some mild spotting. I took things super easy but could not stop what happened Thursday night. At about 4:30 p.m. I started cramping very hard. About 6 Mitch and I decided to go into the emergency room because I had also started bleeding heavily. Since we were in a new town we hoped the hospital would be easy to get to. We got in quickly but took forever to get the doctor in. The whole time I was having back pains and luckily I had taken some Tylenol or would have been cramping hard. When the Doctor came in and examined there was no good news. About 9 our little baby was into this world; sadly not living. He was almost 12 weeks. Of course we don't know if it was a boy but I had felt it was a boy since we found out we were pregnant. I got to see him. He was so small but still our little baby with arms and legs and a little belly and head and eyes. It was very special and emotional. Both Mitch and I felt strongly that this little one needed a name so to us he is Jarom. The hospital has a special service where they will bury the baby, no matter how strong, for free so we had them take the baby. I've been doing okay since Thursday night until yesterday when we drove by the hospital. Just knowing our little one was there and not with us was hard. Of course we are taking comfort in the knowledge of the gospel and knowing that God has a greater plan for us and this baby. We don't know if we will get to raise this child in this life or the millennium but we know this child is sealed to us and that is a great comfort. Eric also makes it easier and keeps my mind off of it because he needs us. My heart goes out to those who have already or are currently going through this challenge. The Lord knows you and your family and loves you. He has a greater plan for all of us that we need to trust. Love you friends and family!
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Carrie!!!
I'm so sorry to hear that!!! Oh I wish I could do something for you! I love that you picked little Jarom. You will be able to have him again!! Take care! We'll be praying for you.
So sorry to hear about this! We will be praying for you!
I can't even imagine. And here I am frustrated about not getting pregnant, but to have something (someone) taken away... thank goodness for this Gospel and the knowlege that it brings. Natalie (my sister) also lost her baby last year. They are expecting again though and things are going well. Love and miss you girl!
Oh my goodness, Carrie. I would say I know what you're going through (I miscarried before Paxton...labor, ER, and all), but I never got to see my baby like you did. I didn't know that the baby would even be big enough at 12 weeks to hold or see like that. I never saw our little baby (who I was also sure was a boy). But when we went through our trial of losing a baby, we took great comfort in an article that my aunt sent to us written by a GA saying that we will be able to see that little one in the next life. My husband's words at the time helped me as well. Little Jarom was (and is) a special spirit that didn't need to go through the challenges of this life. I am always so sorry to hear of others going through the tough time we went through exactly 2 years ago. While our knowledge of the Gospel and Plan of Salvation don't take away our pain, it is comforting to know that Christ suffered for us and died for us so that we can all reunite one day. You and your little family will be in my prayers, Carrie. I'll put your names in the temple when we go this week too.
You are such an amazing family. I don't know what you are going through, and I won't even pretend that I know, since I have never experienced it, but I can tell you that I am so sorry that you have to go through this. If it makes you feel any better, I think your attitude about it is amazing. However, it's still okay to cry sometimes :). We love you!
I'm so sorry to hear that. My thoughts are with you and your little one. You know, I had to go through the same and my little one was 12 weeks too. It's now a little more than a month ago and with my two boys it gets a bit easier but there is no day I'm not thinking of my little one. I will be praying for you.
Oh Carrie, our thoughts are with you and your family. I was recently reading through some journal entries and came across the one where I wrote about the neat experience I had talking with you when I was your VT. It reminded me of how blessed we are to know the plan of salvation so that when we don't know Heavenly Father's immediate plan for us we do know our eternal goals. We love you guys and will keep you in our prayers.
Wow, Carrie, I did not even know that you were expecting. I am so sorry that this happened. Hang in there, at least you have a great family out there in Ark to help support you.
I am so sorry, Carrie! Laura Lopez just blogged about having a miscarriage recently, too! I've never had one, but I can imagine how hard it would be! Be strong and know that we all love you and miss you!!
Oh Carrie, I totally feel for you right now since we are going through the exact same thing at the moment. We love you and your adorable family, wish we lived closer so we could go out together and hang out, but I'll give you a call. You are in our thoughts and prayers. You are so amazing Carrie, I don't know if I ever told you that but you both are so strong and so incredible, Eric is one luck baby!! Love you guys!
The Lopez Family
Prayers and love your way.
Our thoughts are with you. That is an experience that you never think you'll have to go through, but everything happens for a reason. You have the right attitude and you will be fine. Good luck and much love!
Girl...I'm really sorry. That made me so sad to read! I didn't know you were pregnant! But I'm glad that you have a positive outlook, I could tell you things that you already know through the gospel, but just know that I'm thinking and praying for you. A girl down here miscarried with her first at 5 months and have since been struggling to continue on. It sounds like you're making all right choices of perspective and I love you lots! -Jeff and Tiff Cook
Oh Carrie! We are so sorry! We are praying for you guys! You are such an example to me! We love you and miss you!!
Carrie, I'm sorry to hear about your miscarriage. We'll keep your little family in our prayers.
Much love, Kimber
P.s. I felt an increased love for Heavenly Father and this wonderful church as I read your post. Thanks for sharing your feelings.
I am so sorry to hear that this has happened. One of my good friends had this happen to her recently, and she said that she was blessed to have Heavenly Father choose her to give this spirit a body. What a blessing it is to know of eternal families. Our prayers are with your little family.
Hey guys, just wanted to say that we are sorry and that we love you lots and that your in our prayers.
Love Nate and Joelle Day
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